Guess Who’s Back Again!

I’ve been gone for a while, I know. Not one month, not two but two and a couple of weeks. Truth is, I’d remain gone for a few more if it was really up to me- it isn’t.

The guy that runs this space for me has taken it upon himself to text me, on a daily basis, how many days it’s been since I posted. Even though I know he can see a few drafts on the back end (drafts that up until now, I haven’t felt ready to publish.) There’s nothing like a little passive aggressiveness to get you going.

Am I finally ready? Who knows… but I do know one thing, staying away from the one thing that makes you you does not necessarily fix whatever else is going on with you, so here I am.

It’s been 73 days, 74 by the time I publish this, I am seated in the dark with nails that are too long and as brittle as always clicky clackiting on a keyboard. I can hear what sounds like a sitcom next door, I can also hear myself  think that after two months and two weeks of silence, I expect myself to write something better, you deserve to read something better but this, this isn’t it. Who on earth knows what on earth better looks like at this point?

A couple weeks ago, I was seated on the floor, caught somewhere between a thought and Netflix and I told a friend,

‘I miss the old me’

‘What’s the old you?’

The old me is a lot of things of things- she is loud, she is proud, she is a source of light, she has her shit together on most days and boy does she know how to move! I might not know what better looks like- if I do, I am not ready to admit it to you or myself just yet- but I know who the old me, the one that I miss is, it’s time t get her back. So come along and let’s rediscover her together, will you?






4 responses to “Guess Who’s Back Again!”

  1. Nasir Avatar

    I’m ready for this journey.

    1. Veon Ngugi Avatar
      Veon Ngugi

      I’m excited if you’re excited!

  2. Cynthia Taragon Avatar
    Cynthia Taragon

    Tuko pamoja Kama glued papers. ????.

    1. Veon Ngugi Avatar
      Veon Ngugi

      hahaha this is a new one. Also, looks like we were reading each other’s blogs at just about the same time!

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